Lately I am finding it hard to get and stay motivated. In recent weeks I have stepped away from "my lists", i am doing the bare minimum to keep Bella & I going.

Bella is starting to have a sunglass obession like her daddy.

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A day in the life

Today was a shopping day, Bella is now a the age of independence (2) and helping, that said our trip to the grocery store for less than 15 items is now garuanteed to take an hour at least. Now Bella needs to be a BIG girl which mean putting every item in the cart, then at checkout putting every item on the belt. I am thankful I am a SAHM and can take the time to let her do these things. Also if you know me it is giving me a great lesson in slowing down.

At a loss

It is so hard to understand why no one understands. Today I should be holding my little angel Melina, she should be 11 days old. Bella should be getting to know her baby sister. She would be sooo excited. Everyone around me goes on and on, she is not even in their thoughts yet she is never out of my mind, She along with her angel sisters are always here a void in my heart, and ache inside that never goes away. I continue to grieve in private, crying late at night while no one is up. Just wanting her to never be forgotten, just wanting them here with me, my only solace is that someday I will hold my angels, they will be in my arms for all eternity. That seems like for ever and a day away. So for now I will continue to grieve to ache for my angal babies.

About Me

Hello,

My name is Paula. I am a SAHM to Isabella born 6/2/07. First you should know that I have 3 Angel Babies and truly believe I will be able to hold them some day. I know I am blessed to be able to stay home and raise my true little miracle.

I have many interests but don't always get time to enjoy them. Reading, Scrapbooking, anything crafty. I am sorry to say that I have not yet even started to scrapbook Isabella and she is almost 2.

My newest venture will hopefully combine my craft side and earn me some money, Cake Decorating. I really enjoy it and can combine a gift with a job.