At a loss

It is so hard to understand why no one understands. Today I should be holding my little angel Melina, she should be 11 days old. Bella should be getting to know her baby sister. She would be sooo excited. Everyone around me goes on and on, she is not even in their thoughts yet she is never out of my mind, She along with her angel sisters are always here a void in my heart, and ache inside that never goes away. I continue to grieve in private, crying late at night while no one is up. Just wanting her to never be forgotten, just wanting them here with me, my only solace is that someday I will hold my angels, they will be in my arms for all eternity. That seems like for ever and a day away. So for now I will continue to grieve to ache for my angal babies.